63

Tell me it was a joke
That none of it was real
That you're still your own
Say how you feel

Show up at your door
And turn in the key
Say hi to your dog
Be happy and free

Tell me that you're here
Why wouldn't you be?
The fact that you are gone
I still can't believe

Make peace with your god
Ask her to forgive
The sins that you own
And come back here

Walk up to the show
And smile like you used to
Say your name, speak the words
You will never get to

Turn back every clock
And start living again
Receive all the love
You were meant to obtain.

62

I hate you for leaving
For hurting me so
I hate you, but really
I miss you a lot.

61

Young hearts are soft
And the words that pierce them
Are usually the most
Hurtful simple things

We measure our shots
And the ones that others get
We battle the odds
By tearing them down

Words hurt a lot
To those who believe them
As if they were their god
Who decides if they live or they die.

The feelings survive
Erupting in waves
Of pain in your eyes
Blodshoot from your veins

It cuts like a knife
Deep inside your soul
The hope you can't find
Is no longer home

Young hearts are dried
Buried under heavy tears
Losing the joy of being alive
Escaping the world with a sigh of relief.

60

A little flower
Just a tiny petal
Blooms in the snow

The sun shines upon it
That tiny oval
And makes it show

The rain falls down on it
That small pink thing
And makes it grow

The hail, relentlessly hits it
That fragile flower
And hurts it so

That little flower
Endures, endures
Until no more

Up to skies it turns
Just a tiny petal
And just lets go

Oh little flower
Of joy and sadness
I'll miss you so.

59

There's no reason to blame
There's no reason at all
I would have liked to let you know
What you meant to me.

How most things that I wrote
Were inspired by you
How I wish you would have grown
And proved all those people wrong.
How you would have survived
And you would have thrived.

But you can't anymore.
No more words will come from that voice.

58

It's been a week and a day
Since you left like a star
Silent and distantly
Leaving behind the light of your spark

And to be honest I'm still mad
And I think about you not being here
Everyday, while my heart is breaking
While I wish you'd been able to see

How missed you were going to be
How time can just tick away
And things could have been better
If you just get through everyday.