67

Venting out is fine
Don't let it consume you
There are many things you can find
Just looking around you

The world is vast
Some people love you
These are just moments that pass
And end up behind you

66

Sometimes being kind is hard
if the person on the recieving end is yourself
You say things you would never say
to anyone else
Those things that you know
will pierce through your soul
Why is it that you enjoy
hurting youself so?
What trick is there in this world
to see myself as a person of worth?
What can give me the colour I desire
in this colourless soul?
What use is this writing
for no one at all?
But I want to be kind and I want to be nice
And I need just a little bit of advice
On how to make that come true
Because I'm lost in the way and don't know what to do
I wish I my thoughts were never mean to me
How, oh how, can I let that be?

65

Empty yourself
Pur your feelings on to something else
Pretend that is holding you together
Make it hold you together
Run away from facing the fact
That you just don't know how to act
Whit thing you can't weather

Rain on yourself
Take your decisions and put them on a shelf
So that everyone can see
Everyone can see your blame
You say that is pain
But you're just a coward who knows how to hide
The real you from inside

Scream to the void
It doesn't feel like screaming at all
As no one hears
The emotions don't go
You want to let go
Be free from this mess that you made
Get over yourself

64

Unproductive, unnatentive
Sad little girl
Too lazy, too protective
Of your stupid little ego
I despise you, I loathe you
For the excuses you make
And the lies that convince you
That it's all okay
Everytime that you fail
And again and again
I wish I was freed
for this character of mine
That I can't stand